#40
The 40 days are over. And it beautifully marks Mothers’ Day.
This season has been good and average. And some overlapping I suppose.
It is distinctively a season of waiting. Long waiting. But God is near to remind me that waiting builds character and it enlarges my heart. Different occasions and methods. He spoke through the flip chart on my desk on 3 occasions (2 of which were consecutive days and the other was when I returned after a 2-day MC), Ps OC’s sermon “Waiting upon the Lord” and Ruth’s blog last night.
It is in the waiting that our hearts are enlarged. The waiting does not diminish us. As a pregnant woman is enlarged in her waiting, so are our hearts. God does not always rescue us of a painful season. You know that He does not always give to us what we so desperately want when we want it. He is after something much more valuable than our happiness. Much more substantive than our health. He is restoring and growing in us an eternal weight of glory. And sometimes… it hurts.
(Captivating, John & Stasi Eldredge)
What surprised me was the similiarity in all the notes. It’s hard to wait. I just hope I was being refined in the process and found faithful. There are still days of waiting.
2nd thing out of this fast – Mother started attending church on 3 May. She attended again today and I was glad she asked me to go do whatever I had to do. She would be fine. I thank God for the support that the lovely people around me has rendered. I alone can’t make Mum feel comfortable. So thank you, people! Your rewards are in heaven!
And today, being the last day, the Lord gave me a new role. To coordinate things for projection. I teared over it initially because didn’t want roles and responsibilities for this period. There are uncertainties and I didn’t want to commit to anything nor be responsible over something.
I also read about the conditions of the people. And there were many questions. Yet despite all these blemishes, God is looking far beyond and tapping on willing hearts to expand His Kingdom. Our prayer is that we’ve the fear of the Lord in our hearts. If we do not have that, we have everything else to fear. Despite whatever that’s going on, He has given us 2 projects (Facing the Giants & Fireproof) which I believe will reap the end time harvest for His glory.
Thank you for sustaining me. Give me a pure heart and clean hands, that I may be like Mary in the Bible.
Mary said, “My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for He has looked on the humble estate of his servant. For behold, from now on all generations will call me blessed, for He who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is His name.” Luke 1: 46-49
I am blessed only because of You who has done great things in my life. Only dust but You picked me up and called me by Your name. Thank You for this love.
